Alone

Sometimes when I am alone, I think about what it must feel like for someone who has no one. I sometimes have no one; when in my car, when laying in bed, when walking around school. But what would it feel like to literally have no one? No one to come home to, no one to laugh with, no one to care if you cry or if you don't. What would it be like to eat alone every single night? How would you express yourself when you don't have anyone who would want to hear you. My thoughts are my worst enemy, but if they were my only someone, what would I think of them? To those of you alone, my heart goes out to you, because right now, sitting in this room, alone, I feel it closing in on me; the silence. Right now I wish I was not alone, and all I have to do is walk outside and then I wont be. So, my heart goes out to you, know that you are never alone with me. I will find you, and keep you company, because to not have company, what would that be like?

PS. Grandpa I got a 92 in my computer course! I have you to thank for most of that!

Tithing

It is late. I've been doing homework for awhile (like 4 hours) so my brain is shot, but a miracle just happened. I do not check my bank account often. I usually have a rough number in my head, and I don't make many purchases so its OK. When I know there are things I need, I will check it and budget accordingly. I haven't checked it in about a week now so I was just curious as to what I have in there still. I have not been a tithe payer. It is just something that is very hard for me, and I am very vocal about it. Everyone has their certain gospel principles that are just difficult to do, and that is mine. A couple months ago I was encouraged to try and pay my tithing... you know.. if I were planning on getting married in the temple soon, that would have to be something I would have to have lived by. So I tried it. Ive been trying it. It was shaky at first, but Ive been doing it for a little over 2 months straight now. With everything I deposit, I take out my tithing automatically and put it in my "tithing envelope" (thanks grandma). So anyways.. about a week has gone by without checking, maybe even more.. I checked it just now and BAM, over $1,000!! I can actually put some in savings! I'm just in awe. Tithing makes money grow. I'm making money off my money with tithing, because there is no way that would have happened without it. Not only can I pay my bills without stress, but I might even get a little treat for myself as well! I stress over money. Like literally money scares me. If there was a phobia of money, I would have it, and that is not an exaggeration. For some reason, whenever a bill comes up, or I know I have to get something, or I don't know, the simplest things, I stress. I get anxiety. I panic. I don't know why... well, I kind of do, but it just happens. With tithing, no stress. With tithing, miracle money. Gosh. This tithing thing is fun.

Save our Environment

We all do what we can to help out our environment...well, at least we try to do something. For some, its recycling, for others, its picking up trash. There always has to be a personal interest in it though, or else you don't find that passion to get it done. I tried the recycling thing, but it was hard without the support of my family. I'm also only good at making sure my personal trash is thrown away, not necessarily others. I want to be in shape however, and have been trying to get back to the gym and get that pattern going. Its hard to get it started, but once I get it going I know it will get easier. As some of you know, I work for Glenn, and he is in the process of moving the business to RSM...literally 10 min. by car. So, with my wanting to help my environment, as well as stay in shape... I purchased the following...

Mine is blue, and yes it has a basket.. I got it at Walmart! This is my new transportation! Yesterday, Camden and I rode to Golden Spoon, and it was SO much fun! Today we are going to ride to CVS! Its such good exercise, and its honestly so nice just peddling along. I'll put some songs on my iPod, put my purse in my basket, and off to work I'll go!

Powerful

This is the CRAZIEST girl EVER! I don't know if you guys have heard of her, but I am so intrigued by her. Her name is Charise, and no, I cannot spell or pronounce her last name. She is from a tiny town in the Philippines, and this is the tape of her on the Opera show. They found her on you tube, and she has now sang with Celine Dion at Madison Square Garden. I am extremely critical of singers, its kind of a fault of mine, but I had nothing bad to say about this sensational voice! She is only 15! This is a strange recording, but it was the best one I could find. There is funny commentary coming from the Filipino family watching it, and they are just literally filming their television set. She is incredible! I had to share her with you! Finally someone to bring some power into the music world! I sure hope she sticks around! 

Unconvetional

I wake up. I rush through a shower, throw on clothes and barely blow dry my hair, resulting in yet another pony-tail... I eat my breakfast in the car, and speed to whatever it is I am doing that day while frantically looking at my clock to make sure I will be on time. I love sleep. These are the problems of loving sleep, but does it make me not love my sleep? Definitely not, but at least I am aware. Awareness tends to be the first step to fixing any problem. Supposedly. I guess you would want the problem to be fixed in the first place, maybe that would help. Anyways.. Today I woke up and laid in bed for awhile, not because of my love of sleep, but more because I didn't want to repeat that same routine. I know I am not the only one who despises repetitiveness. I don't even know if that is a word, I just know I don't like it. Whenever I don't like it, it being anything really, I try to add in something unconventional; something that would somehow liven things up. I'm sure exciting things are coming to your mind, but it doesn't even have to be crazy. I know, I know, unconventional could have many definitions depending on who you are asking. If you ask me, its anything not part of the actual routine.. so here is what I did differently... Today I woke up, laid there for a min, and got out of bed on the left side instead of the right. I jumped in the shower and started soaping my right arm first instead of my left... oh hush, you know you have the same routines in your showers too... I then blew my hair dry before doing my make-up, and actually put on perfume. Instead of opting out of cereal because its hard to eat in the car, I put it in a cup and added an apple to the breakfast as well. Instead of listening to the same talk radio, I sifted through some old Cd's and started dancing to songs that ruled my world at ages 12-15. I got to work, did my thing, and then came home and painted my nails dark blue while watching episodes of Friends. Yes, I laughed out loud. Then the real topper, its 10:15pm and I am actually going to bed. For being such an unconventional day, it actually was really fun. Lets do it again tomorrow.