I am trying my best

Yes, yes..I know its been awhile. I am trying to be as good as I was last year at writing on this thing, but it seems as if time hasnt really been on my side. First off, I cannot believe it is almost the end of Feb. Time just keeps getting shorter and shorter, and quite frankly..It scares me to death! I guess I should update you on things with me. I had started my semester this Jan. and everything was running smoothly. I made an appoitment a couple weeks ago to see a counselor, just to wrap things up. She was supposed to help me complete some paperwork for my associates degree, and just to make sure everything was handled correctly with my application to UCI. I was excited going into the meeting, and utterly disappointed coming out of that meeting. You see, I made a rather selfish decision when registering for this semesters worth of classes. Rather then taking a speech class I thought I didnt need, I decided to take Yoga and Pilates to greater help with my stress level. It seemed like a good decision at the time, but as I was sitting in front of the counselor...It was not the best decision I could have made. I ended up being .75 units short from being able to transfer. Had I taken that speech class instead, I would have been fine. My application is in, classes have already started, and the thought of being holed up in a classroom another summer didnt sound appealing.. so what do I do? Well, I frantically started emailing professors begging them to take me in, explaining my desires on entering their classroom and my zest for knowledge. A Sociology teacher finally took pity on me, and regardless of my need to be there, I actually really enjoy the class. So what started out as a plan to de-stress my life, turned into the most stressful plan of them all. To think that I had a heavy load last semester is a complete joke. I am now at 21.75 units. My academic classes take up 19.75 of those units, but I had to chose the hardest of them all to fill that space up. I have an online math class (what was I thinking??), Spanish 2 which is a 5 unit course consisting of loads of workbook problems and study time, an English Literature B course which is the more difficult (I had to take A last semester of course), Geography which was supposed to be easy but requires more reading than my English class and a huge picture project (I thought I left those behind in Middle School), Sociology which requires more brain than I can seem to muster at the early hour its scheduled, and a spanish lab which I have to complete 16 hours in by the end of the semester. Then of course Yoga and Pilates... I would have dropped one of them, but I am desperately in need of the units. So needless to say, this semester will surely kill me. I just finished writing out a to-do list for the next couple of weeks and I cant stop laughing because this is a joke. This is a complete joke. I guess on the bright side of it all, I have the most random hours in which I have to be in school which leaves me good amounts of time to accomplish all the work needed, and time to sit in this stupid spanish lab (which I am in right now). I figure if I start doing an hour a day in here I could be finished by March 12th. Its incredible pointless too because I never actually do spanish in here, as you can see by this entry. It is very tempting however, to use the extra hours in my day as my nap time instead. I am trying my best though to look at this positively, which is incredibly hard. I just have to keep reminding myself that all this hard work will pay off at some point. All the hard work gets me in that beautiful classroom, of which I can decorate exactly to my liking; a little perk I find exciting. I just have to keep those sweet elementary kids faces in my mind. They would be proud of this hard work I am putting in. It is difficult to keep those positive thoughts in my mind because I am just tired. I think there has been maybe 3 days this past month that I have actually worn something besides work out clothes. Someone from church ran into me the other day and it took her a bit to recognize me. I still laugh at that because I seriously only wear make-up on sundays. Pathetic. This is a great time in life because I am accomplishing all of this, but then again it is a definate crummy time because I am completely letting myself go. People should be happy I am brushing my teeth, because dont worry, I am doing that. Well, thats all about me for now. Nothing but school. I am grateful for it though, I really am. I enjoy learning, and I am grateful to all the wonderful professors I have been blessed with this semester. They will make this journey all the more worth while. Just be patient with me. I am trying my best, and I promise I will try even harder to be fun to be around.